Weird feelings are rarely misplaced around here, it seems. I guess I've been a kid? Literally, that is. Didn't mean to dip out on you while you were healing. How do you feel?
Oh, I was a kid here and there, too. I guess that's still going around. I've felt better, but being a teen a while helped. I'm almost through to the other side, I hope. It should only last a couple more days, assuming I'm not completely wrong...
Yeah, a heads up would've been nice. Then again I should've told him myself. With everything, I just didn't find the time. Never meant to make it a secret.
You're his best friend. And I think you're the one thing that's his and his alone.
Not like that. Kurt and Logan, they've been in each other's lives a long time. Now Grady's here, and I think that makes him wonder where he's left. The two of you have been through the wringer in this place. You've been there for each other for a lot of stuff we don't even know about.
I thought it was pretty open. I think he's scared I'm reckless, too. I might give you something. I don't know.
You did give me something, but not how he's thinking, I'm sure. I get that, though, since he's lived through some scary shit. What's changed, though? I'm still here. I still love him desperately and I wouldn't have cried on his shoulder if he didn't mean the world to me. Why take it out on you?
I think you've earned the right to ask, but it's not creative or impressive: I was feeling very worn down and vulnerable and sick. I'd lost two people to death in this place right before getting myself killed, and I knowingly meddled in relationships that I didn't take the time to consider. I think we both know if we would have thought it might upset someone, we would have at least thought twice. But I don't regret it. It was a really good time, just maybe not the right time if we wanted to keep everyone happy.
I do want everyone to be happy. Seems like a losing battle in a place like this, but it's still better than anywhere I've ever been. I'd do anything for you guys. Just didn't realize I might be the one you all need protecting from.
For what it's worth, sounds like you were plenty intimate with him. I've fucked my fair share of guys. Haven't cried with very many, though.
Holy self deprecation followed immediately by boasting, Batman. We're a lot more alike that you think, Wes. And for what it's worth, if we all need protection from you, then we all need protection from me, too.
I stepped out on Bruce and I'm lucky he's understanding and we're stupid about labeling things. Navigating a half dozen different preferences isn't exactly easy, though, and just because you and I aren't the type to tie people down doesn't make us inherently wrong anymore than making them inherently right.
We maybe could do with better communication all around, though.
The way this place spins us on a dime, maybe we all need protection from each other. Not a lot of people have done the kinds of things I have, though. You don't just get to say you're sorry and walk away from all that.
I like you a lot, Blake. Communication isn't really a talent of mine, but I'll take what practice I can get. You've been there for me from day one. You put yourself on the line for me when you didn't even know me, and you still haven't stopped.
Trust me when I say I need no help getting myself into awkward positions with Bruce Banner. That's both a talent and innuendo at its best.
You're good, Wes. Even if you weren't always, by your own admission, that you're doing all you can now isn't to be dismissed. We need to be kind to ourselves in this place and I mean it when I say that I think it's probably the best second chance a lot of people will ever get. That should be encouraged and not squandered.
I told him I would fuck him too if that's what he wanted and it shut him up pretty quick. I think I probably owe him an apology for that, but also he sort of asked for it, too.
Not the first time. He used to do it plenty. We'd argue, he'd run off and pick up some guy at a shitty bar. Use him for the night, and we'd be off to the next town in the morning. I always thought he wanted to prove how easily he could replace me, but he always came back.
I think he's just confused. We all are. It'd be hypocritical of me if I said I minded, wouldn't it?
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Long as you aren't asking me to write it. I couldn't compete. But I'll swing by the library.
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You're his best friend. And I think you're the one thing that's his and his alone.
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I thought it was pretty open. I think he's scared I'm reckless, too. I might give you something. I don't know.
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I don't know. Maybe because he didn't hear it from me first? It was a bad conversation. I was stubborn and unsympathetic. That's on me.
Cried about what? Or should I not ask?
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For what it's worth, sounds like you were plenty intimate with him. I've fucked my fair share of guys. Haven't cried with very many, though.
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I stepped out on Bruce and I'm lucky he's understanding and we're stupid about labeling things. Navigating a half dozen different preferences isn't exactly easy, though, and just because you and I aren't the type to tie people down doesn't make us inherently wrong anymore than making them inherently right.
We maybe could do with better communication all around, though.
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Shit, should I be worried about Bruce too?
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I like you a lot, Blake. Communication isn't really a talent of mine, but I'll take what practice I can get. You've been there for me from day one. You put yourself on the line for me when you didn't even know me, and you still haven't stopped.
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You're good, Wes. Even if you weren't always, by your own admission, that you're doing all you can now isn't to be dismissed. We need to be kind to ourselves in this place and I mean it when I say that I think it's probably the best second chance a lot of people will ever get. That should be encouraged and not squandered.
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Yeah, well don't encourage too hard. Jean-Paul forgave me, but I'm on thin ice. He actually went to console Grady after.
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I told him I would fuck him too if that's what he wanted and it shut him up pretty quick. I think I probably owe him an apology for that, but also he sort of asked for it, too.
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Grady incites people as a way of hurting himself in the long run.
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I think he's just confused. We all are. It'd be hypocritical of me if I said I minded, wouldn't it?
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